February 27, 2007
Woohoo, finally started working again monday morning... made active listening with my peers at work, and all I can say is that my stress is going down a lot.. finally. If I ever get another panic crisis, I simply take a 0.25mg clonazepam pill, and in about 20 minutes, everything comes back to normal.
This weekend, I forgot to take it, and all I can say is that after a day, things didn't go very well.
Sooo.... I'm probably doomed to take this for the rest of my life.
Oh well, it's better than a shower and a hot cup o' coffee!
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February 09, 2007
The kind of goals everyone dreams about...
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February 09, 2007
I just finished one of Crichton's newest novel, NEXT. It's a good book, but if you plan on reading it, don't expect any intense action, as you would've felt while reading Jurassic Park or even State of Fear.
No, this book is different. There IS action, but it's different.
In NEXT, you get into the universe of biotechnologies and their companies, people working for them, and new drugs being tested. Also, you see the dark side of those companies and people working for them. As in, there's a rare cell line that came from a patient, and this is the only cell line that exists. It gets destroyed, and the company sends off a bounty hunter to claim some more of those cells. The only thing is, since the original source of those cells has dissapeared, the bounty hunter hunts for the source's daugther, and the grandson.
Why? because somewhere, sometime in the book, a california judge had ruled that the biotech company owned those cells. And had the right to access them anytime. Anywhere.
through the pages, you'll also read some newspaper articles, regarding speaking apes, a theory about blondes being extinct in 200 years, and the existence of true Chimeiras.
Due to the nature of the book, you may have sometimes to re-read a passage here and there (terms and all), and since there are many characters involved, it might be a little bit harder to keep track of who's who and so on.
And since this book is quiet complex, regarding the story itself and all, I won't say anything more, because I'd probably spoil it out.
But in the end, I feel like this book is like some sort of TV serie (let's say ER or SVU) you would read about, which is something I enjoyed.
4.5/5
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February 09, 2007
I'm anxious. So my doctor says. Stressed and probably depressed, too. But that's something he's not quiet sure. There might be some more, even myself I'm not too sure. But anxious, that's something sure. And, to help me out, he prescribed me an anti hallucinations named Seroquel. 25 MG orange-brown pills. Yay. Whenever I take my medicine, I'll pass up the next 12 hours sleeping. My sleep might still be disturbed (as in nightmares, or whatever) but now I feel better when I wake up,... do not feel burned anymore. Now, if I happen to miss, or even to voluntarily skip a night with this medicine, I will have trouble falling asleep and stay asleep. Tonight is one of those nights. I forgot to renew my medicine today and 24 hours drugstores don't exist around here, unfortunately. We have "opened 24 hours" groceries, MAC's marts, fast food locations, clinics, but no drugstores. Go figure. I haven't been able to sleep yet, and I've passed the last hour walking around my appartment,zapping through TV channels, surfing the web, just trying to find something that will burn me a little more, so that I can sleep. Now, while trying to burn myself, I found this on the web: Seroquel Lawsuit Research- Side Effect: Pancreatic CancerAlthough rare, Seroquel has been found to cause the deadly side effect of pancreatic cancer.
Pancreatic cancer (also called cancer of the pancreas) is represented by the growth of a malignant tumour within the small pancreas organ.
Weitz & Luxenberg is now accepting cases on behalf of seroquel users who have developed pancreatic cancer. If you or a loved one has suffered due to Seroquel use, fill out this simple form.
Each year about 31,000 individuals in the United States are diagnosed with this condition, with more than 60,000 in Europe. Risk factors for pancreatic cancer include:
Blah, blah, blah. We get the picture.
There's side effects to everything, and I'm very aware of this. I mean, nothing will keep us safe forever, and medication, although it's here to help, sometimes it'll bring us faster to our deaths.
Still, in the end, I have more chances on getting hit by a car while crossing a street downtown.
Aneway, if I can't sleep, I'd better just go get myself a coffee or something.
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February 07, 2007
Woohoo, I'm still a non-smoker. For almost a week now!!!
Although those patches are making me sick as I've never been before, I still do not feel the need to smoke.
Yes, sometimes, when I'm watching TV, reading a book or something, I still have the habbit to lit one up, and smoke a bit, but I guess that eating a fruit helps with the addiction. In addition, every time I think about lighting a smoke, I think about an ashtray's taste. I personally never licked one, but I can imagine it's disgusting taste washing up through my mouth. urk.
From what I see, the biggest problem about stopping smoking is just to fill up the voids when I used to lit a smoke, and do something else to keep me busy. And once that is controlled, then it's easy to stop.
Now, the only one thing that could perhaps be a problem to me is that I'm an casual cigar smoker, as in cigars & wine/porto cheese, etc. At lounges or some of my friends' (even my) appartment.
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February 07, 2007
Yeah well, I definately find it difficult, if not impossible to write emails and chat around on IRC and MSN when you have a cat sitting on your table, between your k-board and yourself.
First of all, as when reading a newspaper on a table, the cat won't budge, no matter what happens, and even if there's food involved. The cat wants your complete attention.
Second: If you dare move your hands a little, as in to use your mouse, or try to type something, the cat will definately start moving, and will probably hit you a few times with it's paws. Bring back your attention to scratching and caressing your cat.
Third: If you still try to write something, the cat will definately bite your hands, fingers, forearms. It will look at you with it's lovely smile, and will bite some more. If you try to escape from the cat's grip, the cat will get you again. If you try to push the cat elsewhere on your desk, it'll come back. If you put it down on the floor, it'll come back.
The end is, no matter what happens, take care of your cat until it decides to go away, by it's own decision.
These small lines that I wrote, it took me about 25 mins to write it all down. And with the help of my feline, Taz. A real devil.
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February 04, 2007
Well yeah, after smoking for the past 7 years, I finally decided to stop, once again.
Fortunately, this time I'm not at school, and I won't be stressed out by an upcoming exam... which is exactly what happened a few years ago. I did manage to stop smoking for about three months back then, but started again on that thursday morning.
This time, I'll make it.
Only problem so far is for the last four days, I've been using Nicoderm patches, and they keep on giving me f****** headaches. But I manage to keep away from those deadly smokes. And every time I see someone smoke, or smell the smoky air, I get a haut de coeur. It's disgusting to smell it, or even just think about it. I wonder how I managed to smoke all these years.
As long as I don't pass up my stress into food and gain more weight, I'll make it this time. Plus, I'll have more money to burn elsewhere... woohoo!
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